It's like I lost myself for a year or so. I gave up trying, or even giving a shit.
Turned my back, and now I've turned back around to find havoc raging around me.
I lost sign, focus, and a drive to be what my full potential will allow. And now that I've faced what I let down, it's taking me everything to raise it up again.
I'm back to who I was, but my situation is now more dire.
I'm changing for the better, but that doesn't mean there won't be blood.
-Jessica Carpenter-
There once was a bird
who sat on a branch
The branch of a tree-
Just imagine that!
The bird did hop higher
Till the wind came around
And from the branch fell the bird
Down, down, down
It smashed on the ground
wrenching in two
it's guts spilled on the leaves
A panic did there ensue
"Why?" Asked the deer
"Why would he jump?
Could he not see from the branch?
He was too far up!"
Along came the white owl
wise and fat
And he gave them their answer
just answered with fact
"There is a great lesson
Here to be learned
It's about what you're told
And more important-
what you heard."
"This little bird,
a song bird no doubt
Was high in the tree
when he fell all the way down."
"From the day he was born,
He was told not to fly,
And with no knowledge of wings,
Fell with grace from the sky."
"But in that deep moment
The air rushing past
He felt grace and poise,
He could breathe his last."
"He found it more pleasurable
To die in the act
To give all you got,
And never look back."
-Jessica Carpenter-
I've lost my faith in these religious battles, lost my god in this holy war.
The darkness comes; a mighty gale and the lioness harnesses her roar.
This blood shed is one that pierces my soul- but is it a gate to heavens hidden passage?
Could enlightenment be found in the cruelty of the beast?
But when you've seen what I have seen, prayers fall shattered at my feet.
I can no longer take the virtues, the gods trident doest spear my wild wind, tames my tendencies, deceives my foreseeing dream.
Forgive me my never begotten son, your mothers truth is half swollen with pride, and shame for the darker side of me.. ..
For now I'm free.
-Jessica Carpenter-
I once made out with Medusa
I guess I should have known
I'd look into her eyes
my heart would become stone.
A reapers cape I wear
oh my god!
Hear the beat of my heart drop;
The lies I've told!
Scream with me
Children of pain
I'm here if you need me
Medusa, I'm insane.
Your beauty
holds no compare
to this stone cold pulse
I'm to bare!
Government, fuck yourself!
Military, too!
I choose a state of nature
in which I rule you!
I once made out with Medusa
I guess I should have known
I'd look into her heart
and there I'd find my home..
-Jessica Carpenter-
Penis brittle
A fuckabaloo
Bitch stuffed pastries-
How do you do?
Shit flavored pies,
cakes, and cookies.
Cupcakes of cum-
Cock flavored gum.
Turds on truffles with
Chocolate and piss.
Whore covered muffins
with coconut mist.
Cunt filled doughnuts
Line the shelves,
Candy ropes of pussy
have hung themselves.
Little schlampen scones
Sprinkled with doom,
Lollipoped Assholes
Not sure from whom..
This is the world,
A sweet shop morphed
Be cautious you bitches,
It's the truth I just dwarfed.
:O
-Jessica Carpenter-
